Day 13: part 1 (morning)

I feel better today— still depressed but not nearly as bad as yesterday. 

I need to be keeping myself busy, which is kinda difficult, because I tire out pretty quickly. So catch-22. 

I have putty I’m supposed to use to work my right hand, and I like that so I’ll work with that and sudoku today and Brandon and I are going to organize our basement/apartment area some more today… He takes such good care of me. 

I am truly the luckiest girl in the world to have what I have. I’m so blessed. Brandon truly does everything he can to keep my spirits up even though I know this has to be really hard for him. 

Maybe we’ll go on a walk today or something once he’s off work. 🙂

Dad and Brandon will both be home today by around 2-3 which makes me happy, i just like when they’re both here. It’s comforting.

Still depressed, but working on it. It’s hard to not focus on what I’ve lost, or am missing out on, or what I’m keeping others from doing… I don’t know. I have to think about what I do have. What I can still do. Even though it’s excruciating. Every thought is painful. It’s like a bad breakup, but worse… Like my heart is broken by myself because my own self/body has let me down. 

Prayers for fruit of the Spirit for myself and all those around me. Thank you! 

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